I used to think that Massive Attack’s Mezzanine was the greatest Waterbed Album of all time. When I say Waterbed Album, I’m talking about one of those albums that you would use to seduce someone -- an album full of rich and sensual sounds, so much so that whenever you hear it, your mind tumbles into the darkened corners of your sexual self, and you start to get your imaginary freak on with all of the fantasy people you dream about. Throughout my life, there have been many Waterbed Albums -- The Cure’s Disintegration, Morphine’s Good, Prick’s self-titled album, and the aforementioned heavyweight champion Mezzanine.
Former heavyweight champion, though.
The title belt has been wrestled away -- no, more like choked-the-fuck-out and dragged lifelessly from the ring -- by the otherworldy monstrosity known as Oxbow, and their disturbing and quite beautiful platter fittingly titled An Evil Heat.
Now -- please trust me when I tell you the following about this beast of an album:
An Evil Heat will suffocate you, but in that good kind of way. Kind of like when you want your lover to reach out and wrench their hands around your throat, just to see what it feels like to have a little taste of that type of darkness. From the moment the album starts, it becomes quite clear that this is an act of love. You will be beaten. You will be scarred. But you will love every moment of this beating. You will pick up your head, and stare off into the nothingness -- and you will want more.
Something important to know about Oxbow, is that vocalist Eugene S. Robinson is a monster -- and I mean that with the utmost respect(read the linked article, and see for yourself). He is unlike the rest of the kids on the playground. He is relentless, and his swagger will envelope you from the moment he opens his mouth on the opening track, "The Snake & The Stick," whispering right into your ear -- "One Sunday morning, the preacher went a-trawling/ To the House of Fuck, he come a-calling."
If that doesn't get you going, well, I have no idea what to tell you, my friends.
When I listen to An Evil Heat, it feels like a dirty gospel record. Not dirty in a pornographic sense, but dirty in a grimey and to-the-bone sense. Yes, there are tracks that stand on their own, but ultimately this is a swallow-it-all type of album. Something to put on late at night when the rest of the world is fast asleep, so that the feral and visceral parts of you can get the fuck on down. This record is all swagger and sweat. From the opening track right to the very end of the thirty-two minute(!) closer, "Shine(Glimmer)." This album will roll you. This album will take you into parts of yourself you never knew existed.
Don't believe me? Throw this fucker on the next time you want to let the animal out of the cage. See what happens. Write it all down. You can come on back and tell me I was right.
I can only assume that associating an album with a particular moment of time is a collective experience. Sleater Kinney's The Hot Rock encapsulates the fall of 2000, Creeper Lagoon's Take Back the Universe and Give Me Yesterday will forever trap me in the winter of 2002, Modest Mouse's Good News for People Who Love Bad News might as well be a bona fide transporter stuck on the spring of 2004. Setting aside the apparent affinity for seasonal album association in even-numbered years, the formula for this phenomena is pretty damn predictable - obtain an album and play it relentlessly, almost to the point of physical dependence. Whether because of the ipod, the emergent tendency to download songs or merely a sustained period of insulation from new music (there was something of a dark ages for me between, say, Cat Power's You Are Free and The Kill's Midnight Boom) , it had been a while since I'd experienced that kind of obsessive temporal association with a record, until this summer's Rearranger from Mates of State. I adore this album. It's cohesive, it's uplifting without being sappy and there's a mythology to the production of something pretty but not (totally) simplistic that maybe makes you think married couples can consist of two intensely creative people in a way that provides a helpful alternative to the Sartre-de Beauvoir model that I personally find so unlikely. Or intimidating. Or debilitating. So thanks, Mates of State, for providing a model marriage and producing an album that I can presumably use for some time to transport me back to this past summer, which is becoming ever-more necessary as the cold progresses and the temptation to cocoon myself in Elliott Smith's From a Basement on a Hill (winter 2004!) threatens to ensure a low-level melancholia. Rearranger goes on the list of temporal transportation, which consists of records that matter not so much because they're brilliant (although some of them are) but because they illustrate, for me, the extent to which a relationship to an album (or band, or song) is so malleable over time. I wasn't ready to love Kid A when it came, but now I'm much closer to getting it. My affection for Pretty Girls Make Graves was much shorter than I would have thought, given my initial wave of obsession. Like books, musical artifacts come in and out of your life in weird and unpredictable ways. But even when an album that is perhaps not so great comes to be entwined with a particular period of time, it is perhaps more useful as a (psychological, emotional) time capsule, even if not as a representation of musical mastery.
Girl In A Coma are the greatest band to enter my world in many years, and have provided me with the most transcendent concert experience I’ve felt in nearly a decade.
What? How? I will answer that question as simply as possible in a minute, but let me first start off this piece by reminding you of how I don’t review bands in the traditional sense, but rather I’m eternally on a quest to find the heart of this thing we call music, and why exactly it does for us what it does. Go here.
Aside from being completely moved by their music, what I love most about GIC is that they know exactly who they are and perform as such, unabashedly. They are one of few in this day and age who truly get it. And by getting it, they are doing just about the opposite of every other new “great” or “successful” band that continues to roll out, only to be forgotten for the next fad. You see, each and every time I hear about the “next great band” I delve in, only to enjoy, but not feel completely moved by it – eventually to simply forget about them. This is a pattern that has been going on for too long. So many bands that impress, but fail to come full circle: Yeasayer, Battles, !!!, Black Kids, Fleet Foxes, TV on the Radio, Fiery Furnaces, Cat Power – all the hipsterati, albeit the dated ones. (You get my point?)
So why do you continue ignoring them? From the onset, I believe it is because you hear their Moz meets Joan Jett sound and immediately categorize and shelve them. Sure, this comparison cannot be ignored – it was Joan, after all, who signed them to Blackheart records upon hearing a rehearsal, and Moz did indeed hire them to replace an opener. I’m also seeing the trends – popular music is currently controlled by the most futile, formulaic bullshit since Limp Bizkit. Even on the metal end, this emo-thrash that dominates MTV2 is quite awful. What we’re eternally left with is the hipster world, which clearly focuses on either bands that have an unheard sound that prevent them from coming full circle, or an uber-hip aesthetic of something retro; sincere without being sincere. That said, you’re still missing it.
“And I will save - and I will save all my words for someone who speaks my language so clear.”
Perhaps this explains everything properly, as Nina exclaims in their tribute to Jeff Buckley, “Vino”, from their current release Trio B.C. I am quite the Buckley admirer, yet I had no idea they felt the same when I first stumbled into GIC some time ago - in an odd, random shout-out by Latina magazine, the equivalent of a Spanish Marie Claire, yet nonetheless I owe it so dearly for changing my life for turning me onto these women. I’ll never forget that first moment I plugged into “Clumsy Sky” from their first album Both Before I’m Gone, the moment I heard the perfection of pure blood reincarnated; the moment I was reminded I was not alone in this world, as being someone who “speaks the language”, if you will…
We continue to search out for this unknown thing that we found within the likes of Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Radiohead, Arcade Fire, even Amy Winehouse, the latter being a ‘lost one’ – yet we continue to refuse to understand or embrace it. The years that have followed have created this eternity where it is so avoided that we’re left attempting to worship Bon Iver and the like, yet deep down when we look in the mirror we know the sad truth. This thing all of these life-changing bands have in common is their absolute nakedness; their unashamed attack, right in the face of the world that would normally laugh at them, yet now worship them. To delve into this would take an entire book, but it is quite indeed the exact thing that causes these same geniuses to melt down and possibly commit suicide (Buckley, Cobain, Winehouse?) and/or put up the blinders to save themselves (Yorke/Vedder).
Purity. Nakedness. Bleeding.
Think of them as early Radiohead. “Creep” - I watched them encore a punk-rock version of Creep that was much better than anything I'd ever expect of Thom, considering the steps he’s taken to distance himself from the MTV years. When Radiohead came out, I honestly saw them as a tawdry imitation of U2, despite loving “Creep”, and honestly, that's exactly what they were, which is probably why Bono still hates them, as well as why they all spend so much energy attempting to distance themselves from the fact, never playing anything from 'Pablo Honey', albeit rarely at best.
So here we are with Girl in a Coma. The hipsters will write them off, perhaps because they have major label support, perhaps because they don’t understand their specific brand of cool, but honestly because they’re being true in a false world. They're not trying to be cool, they are simply doing what they do. More importantly, and the very same reason we’re in a void of great bands nowadays, they’re coming from the true depths of love and pain, just like the greats you remember that no longer exist. While there are a few bands that come to mind presently on the same tip – most notably Regina Spektor, the Arcade Fire and the Twilight Sad – all of these bands are quirky, to say the least. And they also (Regina excluded) seem preoccupied with fitting into their hipster acceptance.
I realize the jaded would automatically place them into the "all-female" category. Here is where they differ:
my problem with the majority of "all-female" bands is nothing more than agenda. For too long, here is how "female-fronted" has played out - psychologically speaking, something atrocious happened to you, and you’ve never been able to overcome it - to the point that you start your all-female band. You become political and serious, eventually spending much of your time on why men are the inherent evil in the world – how women can do just as well, if not better. I don't disagree. Look, I love a lot of bands like this, but not in the same way; they’re simply hung up on their own agendas, missing out on the ultimate beauty in life. As important, creative, and inspiring as it may be, I simply can’t fully embrace the ultimate fault that is their specific hatred toward the world, as I cannot understand it. Apologies riot grrls, but I'm a sweet guy that loves women and doesn't fit into your 'schism', so to speak.
Call me the hopeless romantic. It sucks to be here, but I am.
This is where Girl In a Coma rise above everyone. There are no agendas, no ostracizing, nothing of that sort – they don’t preach, it’s as simple as that. They simply are the real deal, doing what they love, as themselves. Perhaps this is why they’re not the biggest band in the world today, although if I ruled they'd be up there...
I’ll be painfully honest with you all. I’ve only ever been completely moved to tears by a live performance twice in my life. Never having seen Buckley or Radiohead, but then again, I’ve never seen almost all of my ultimate heroes. The first time I ever cried during a live performance was back in 2000, at Carnegie Hall. The young man I was there to see was none other than Pandit Ravi Shankar, and within several minutes his notes were reshaping my entire existence.
Not to insult those who understand Ravi, but I cannot begin to put them in the same realm, but that’s not the point at all. The point is that they alone brought it out in me again, several weeks ago at the Knitting Factory. Yes it is a different level, but it is the same principle – that of the absolute. The pure, naked bleeding I mentioned above. While Jenn and Phanie rock the fuck out in their own distant worlds – never attempting to strike a pose or look cool – there is Nina, in a trance, reminding me of a cross between Kurt, Jeff, and Mike Patton – that soul which is entirely possessed and encapsulated within herself, emitting the beacon of absolute truth we all possess, all the while emitting it as an angel from above with the voice she’s been blessed.
This young woman rips my entirety to shreds with every breath, as she should with you. The tragedy in it all is simply in the fact that I had to hide this, as I noticed that a few of the spectators nearby, in the largely gay crowd, were indeed making fun of me, which raises an entirely new set of questions to be asked at a later date. The fact that I broke down transcended weakness - it owed much more to pure beauty and hope than anything I've felt in recent years.
Allow me to draw another comparison, if I may. GIC are the modern-day Misfits. Yes, I said it, the Misfits – simply without the aesthetic need to impress you.
What were the Misfits, really? They were simply a group of true misfits, never fully appreciated until their demise. They embraced the angst of punk rock, that of being true outsiders, yet could not shed Danzig’s painful reality of the absolute – he was so infatuated with his versions of truth – those being the likes of Elvis, Roy Orbison and such - yet they were torn between the two worlds, in the exact similar manner as GIC. To embrace beauty, despite being so pissed off for being so misunderstood. This remains the ultimate quest, it seems. It remains entirely too complicated to fully embrace what is within, so we must mask it with at least a hint of abrasion. What everyone who loves the Misfits or Danzig realizes, yet never embraces, is the simple fact that he is indeed pouring out his soul, or 'crying', if you will. This is what all of the greats do, yet we're incapable of accepting or embracing it - always to shielded in protection, in avoidance, in fear of being hurt.
Yet being hurt is what 'it' is all about. Asi Vida.
These women are the perfect example of something we all believe to be dead, and that is the hope for the future. They are my current hope for humanity in this world of short attention-spanned idiot technological snarkers.
They are so good you must embrace them on your own, with an open, vulnerable heart - as these words cannot begin to bring justice to how I am truly impacted by them.
Maybe the important thing is not happiness, but peace—not to feel joy, but calm, comfort. Maybe when we’re overwhelmed, the mission should be to simplify rather than to cheer up. Maybe it doesn’t really matter, at any given point, whether we’re happy or sad.
I just moved from a fairly central and bustling part of the city to a quiet neighborhood several miles north. I used to be thirty seconds away from coffee and Gatorade and breakfast, and now I walk ten minutes just to catch a bus. This was not by design. The move was strictly out of financial necessity. It was not an easy decision, but it was an important one—and a depressing one. It was depressing because the very necessity of it made me realize the structure of my life, the schedule by which I must currently abide, is so prohibitive of my ideal that it almost makes free will seem like a joke. But then I started walking around my new neighborhood in the wee hours, and even though it’s only a few miles up the way, the sky seems bigger. There are cottage-decibel crickets and midnight birdsongs and cool, breathable air and, yes, that great and imposing celestial blackness. I’ve never known a better way to imbue myself with sadness than to stare at the night sky, and I mean that in the best possible way. I cannot bring myself to feel even slightly significant when I place myself within the context of a wholly indifferent planet and universe, and that, too, is a good thing. Not indifference like the Free Market model, but indifference like the way you feel when you find yourself in the ocean, and you realize all you can see is water—no humans, no mountains—and you realize you are at its mercy, and that your only choice is to yield to nature. It’s a profound and consuming sadness, but life is also probably never simpler than in those moments. You roll around in the grass with your dog and it occurs to you that if you’re both lucky, he might live another ten years. You wake up next to your girlfriend with the sun in your eyes and you realize that, for whatever reason, all the love in the world won’t keep you together forever. These are the things you remember, not because they make you happy, but because they don’t.
Sun Kil Moon’s Ghosts of the Great Highway is probably the saddest album I truly love. It is, on one level, an album about a bunch of boxers who died young, long before their respective times, but really, it’s about the ways in which we deal with pain—painful memories, pain we caused, literal physical pain. The first song, “Glenn Tipton,” opens with a series of scattershot childhood recollections:
Cassius Clay was hated more than Sonny Liston Some like KK Downing more than Glenn Tipton Some like Jim Nabors, some Bobby Vinton I like them all
Kozelek’s acoustic finger-picking dances in the background while he muses on the similarities between himself and a father he may or may not have known, and remembers a long-dead coffee shop owner named Eleanor, and laments the first girl he ever loved who broke his heart. (The latter earns the title of his “first victim.”) This is all vapor, but that doesn’t mean it’s not worthy of a song. These are the changes that haunt you, but that you can’t let yourself forget, either.
“Carry Me, Ohio” is a murderer—a love song in which a man out of love pleads for the woman he’s disappointed (and maybe even destroyed) to, somehow, be taken care of. (Which is to say, it’s not that he doesn’t love her, but that he can’t love her back.) “Salvador Sanchez” comes out of the gate fuzzy and goes through the aforementioned litany of dead boxers, gifted fighters, all of whom “fell by leather,” each and every one a tale of promise and life wasted, and yet who, when considered together, form a sort of fraternity that would be enviable if not for the initiation rites.
The centerpiece, though, is “Duk Koo Kim,” each of whose fourteen minutes weave and swirl and break and crash in a mirror of the fourteen rounds it took for the American Ray Mancini to kill the South Korean boxer for whom the song is named. Kim had a tough time making weight for the fight, but managed nonetheless to control Mancini for several rounds, opening up some brutal wounds before delirium set in and Mancini started working him over. Mancini finally dropped him in the fourteenth round and Kim almost immediately fell into a coma, dying four days later. A few months later, Kim’s mother killed herself. Less than a year later, so did the referee, who many thought a failure for not stopping the fight sooner. The song, of course, is not explicitly about the fight and its aftermath, but it still manages to encompass what one would imagine to be the emotions of all involved, the guilt and hopelessness and longing for the dead and gone. And still, after some sort of lifetime in which every sticking memory is an assassin, the song ends with the pastoral:
Birds gather 'round my window Fly with everything I love about the day Flowers, blue and gold and orange Rise with everything I love about the day
Walk with me down these strange streets How have we come to be here So kind are all these people How have we come to know them
You live with sadness. Sometimes you earn it and sometimes you’re saddled with it, but it’s the life you build around it that determines whether or not it’s a punishment. The album ends with “Pancho Villa,” an acoustic reprise of “Salvador Sanchez,” just to remind you one last time that there’s an eternity to be a ghost to others, but there’s only so much time to have the good fortune to look back sweetly on the ones that you have known.
Summertime is when I get all sorts of nostalgic, and break out all of my 80s Hardcore shit. Why? Because those records - every last one of them - hold some memories that are buried underneath all this "Adult Responsibility" crap I have to deal with now. And most of those memories are of the "Get Your Grin On" variety, the kind of memories that cause a chain reaction inside of a cat like me that makes me want to start another band and rock the shit out of some skulls.
Thanks to the Magic & Glory of The Interwebs, all of those out-of-print records CAN be found - you just have to know how and where to look. I've found stuff I never in my life thought I would hear again. A lot of the bands I grew up on in those hazy 80s summers have reunited, touring the country much like they did back in the day, although the crowds now are much older, balder, and not as apt to go off into a slam-dancing feeding frenzy (which, when you really think about it, was part of the appeal of those shows back in the day - Total Release).
Fuck it, enough talk.
This is precisely what I'm riffing on right here:
Seriously, now - what band can top the Bad Brains? The intensity. The tenacity. The feral and visceral reaction. The chaos. You cannot resist them. The fury with which they attack their instruments has never been surpassed or even replicated. Masters of The Craft.
I'm pretty sure the only band that has ever come close to what The Bad Brains were capable of were The Cro-Mags, who I was blessed enough to see live when they toured with Motorhead and Megadeth(although, Megadeth played a very abbreviated and angst-ridden set, and were kicked off the tour that night) at an indoor soccer arena on the west side of Phoenix. They fucking leveled my punk ass. Hell, it's been over twenty years, and I still haven't seen a band that created as much energy and movement as these motherfuckers did. They did more than push air - they vaporized it.
Another band that knocks the wind out of me every time I throw on their album, is Swiz. They were a monster of a crew - Shawn Brown is probably the most underappreciated and unheralded vocalists/lyricists from this era of hardcore. Swiz was a DC/Arlington area band, made up of kids who used to skate and go to shows together. They wrote terse, staccato jams that blast right into your mind, with melodies you'd never think would stick, but they certainly do. Brown was the original vocalist for Dag Nasty - another band that stirs the Memory Pot.
And, seeing as how I've already touched on the DC area...
Minor Threat brings about a flood of halcyon memories for me - driving around on a Friday night in the middle a carload of Xavier girls(Phoenix's Catholic Prep Academy for girls, and my main source of teen action in the 80s), singing along to these massive anthems of Youthful Rebellion of The Highest Order. What could truly be more rebellious than a group of kids who disavowed alcohol, drugs, and casual sex? Obviously, I wasn't grabbing hold of that Straight Edge lifestyle/ethos* - but the band surely did kick out the jams, as evidenced by the clip below.
One of my funniest/oddest/warmest memories from that time period involves Minor Threat coupled with the use of "drugs." I was in a band called Grave Mistake, and we used to rehearse at my house, because my mother was awesome and supported me in whatever I wanted to do. We were a bunch of goofballs who wanted to be as punk as we possibly could, even though not one of us ever went hungry or wanted for much back in that era - hell, our drummer's father was the President of a growing national airline at the time.
We were rehearsing for some warehouse show that we somehow got on the bill for. It was like our third or fourth show, with our first being opening up for Social Distortion at a VFW Hall. We had a habit of picking a cover song and destroying it as our intro - even at house parties. We thought it was funny, and sometimes we would pick a song from one of the bands we were playing with/opening for - just to spite them. I had been huffing ether all day off of the bandana I kept in my back pocket(White Trash!), and our singer, Iraj, decided he wanted us to play "Straight Edge."
Let's just say that it ended up morphing into something totally different and retarded, with me falling all over myself and knocking over some amps. Iraj realized that we weren't going to be covering any Minor Threat anytime soon, and all was well with the world of Grave Mistake. Good times.
ANYWAYS...
One of the bands we really loved a lot was R.K.L.(Rich Kids on LSD) - these fuckers were retardedly adept on their given instruments. Their album, Rock And Roll Nightmare is still one of my favorite records of all time. We would always try and emulate what they were doing, but we were such fledglings that we couldn't pull off all of the nuances and intricacies of the shit they were playing. I never got a chance to see them live, which still bums me out to this day.
A band that I did get to see live was SNFU. These Canadian madmen came barreling through Phoenix in the summer before my senior year of high school, touring behind their If You Swear, You'll Catch No Fish album(if you don't have it, you should get it - trust me). I had only heard a couple of their songs before seeing them, and they completely blew me away. I'm not sure if there is any way to explain what makes them so special without explaining that their frontman, Mr. Chi Pig, has to easily be one of the most charismatic and dynamic cats to hit a stage. This dude was all over the place, making faces, jumping around, and looking like he was having the time of his fucking life.
And really?
Any band that can pull off a song about losing one's memory in the fashion shown below should be in heavy rotation on everyone's portable Jam Device.
I'll probably be posting more of this "Memory Lane" type of shit this summer, as every time my iPod lands on something that causes my heart to jump back in time, I feel an urge to spew about it.
I'll admit to being someone who has difficulty admitting to liking country. I usually lump it in with hip hop and polka as a genre that is probably okay for other people to enjoy and support, but starkly uninteresting, perhaps even inapplicable, to me. This is partly because like a lot of post-punk retired riot grrls, I have trouble separating enthusiasm for music from identifying with a community, and I just don't much identify with street life, polka parties or cowboy culture.
Nevertheless, I've found myself utterly obsessed with the music of Jessica Lea Mayfield. I suppose it's also possible to categorize Mayfield as folk. Or ambient. Or soul. Or bluegrass. But rather that get into a debate on the pros and cons of music taxonomies, I'll get to the part where I talk about how much I like Mayfield's music. First things first, she's as cute as a button, looking like a woodland sprite gone hay field. In the midst of getting to know music by the Black Keys, I found that they'd worked with her on her album, which instantly appealed to me because it has a kickass name: With Blasphemy So Heartfelt. Mostly though, I like her because her voice just blows me away. It's twangy and fallow and heady. It's true that her lyrics sound like a 19 year old girl dealing with heartbreak for the first time, presumably because she's, you know, 19 and maybe dealing with heartbreak for the first time. But I think setting aside a place for simple music, especially when it's pretty, is a worthwhile thing, because simplicity is by definition protected from pretension. Partly for this reason, I think, I guiltlessly hum and sing (and occasionally belt out) her lyrics for weeks at a time. Her song "I Can't Lie to You" was at one point so embedded in my mind that I realized I'd been singing it continuously for the better part of an hour while cleaning my apartment. Maybe because she's been performing since she was eight, her live shows are delightful. During last year's CMJ, I saw her play at Maxwell's, and she plays some songs live on NPR , which, in addition to containing some stellar solo songs, includes the revelation that she plays shows with her dad's guitar, which may or may not be the cutest damn thing ever.
So maybe liking Jessica Lea Mayfield doesn't count as bravely branching out into new musical boundaries. She's not so far away from certain songs by bands firmly entrenched in the femme punk lexicon (Fuzzy is the first band that comes to mind, but there's also a raft of musicians who love to reclaim country songs for their own uses, like the Dollyrots) and I don't think she'll haul me away into a raging enthusiasm for Lee Ann Womack or Dolly Parton. But there's something about her unapologetic cuteness and authenticity that makes it easy to be unapologetic about liking her songs, even if it strays from a general preference for angrier, more complicated music.
